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FAT CONTINUED

FAT CONTINUED

I would just like to ask the question why it makes people so angry when someone is unhealthy? And chooses to be. Like, what makes me upset is when fat and unhealthy people are called disgusting and pathetic. So if one makes a conscious decision that they'd rather focus on other things than be healthy, that makes them disgusting? Why can't someone just make a decision that they love food and like to eat a lot? Do you express the same amount of anger towards famous artists or musicians that "lived fast and died young"? Do you have enormous judgemental anger...

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FAT

FAT

  "Maybe the reason you don’t want to lose weight enough for the process to be simple is because you feel pressure to be thin, but not desire. Maybe, in other words, you kind of don’t care that much, really. You think you look pretty good, even if every magazine in the world says you’re a fat cow. Maybe you think, yeah, still. So the wiser section of your brain that would rather be learning Italian keeps throwing cupcakes at you while you panfry your block of soy protein in oil substitute. Decisions are beautiful. They are evidence of thought...

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SEX

SEX

This message to save yourself for marriage and that marriage should always involve love is the main contributor to sexual shame. This sexual shame leads to SO many more problems then possible regret for having sex with someone impulsively. This idealization that sex is this sacred and pure thing and CANNOT be anything else is using fear and shame to judge and control people's private sex lives. This is why so many people are so fucked up around sex. Because they are uneducated and are not aware that a lot of us are just very perverted and highly sexual in...

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Breathe

Breathe

How can I breathe. How can I self soothe? I don't know how to. I don't think I deserve it. I can't relax and I can't breathe. I am shaken with anxiety most the time and my chest is tight. I have no fucking idea who I am so how can I tell my therapist? Every therapist diagnoses me with something different. I feel broken. Is there not a word for what I am? Is that such a bad thing? Maybe I am just too fucking complex and unique. Isn't that a good thing? There really is no doctor or...

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Numbness

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Numbness

A lot of the time I feel numb and empty. Yes, I do have a lot more joy, laughter and love in my life than I EVER have. I love my girlfriend more than life itself. I love my family. Well, most of them. I even love my dog like he's my own son. I laugh VERY often and hard. Yet, I would say, generously, that half the time I feel like there's nothing going on in my brain. Like I am "zoning" and just staring off into the distance. I guess that's why, in the past, I have turned...

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